Hey everyone welcome to my website! I decided to start this at the beginning of my weight loss journey to help maintain my sanity! Wish me luck!

Today! was traumatic!! I took my before pics... can you say GAG??? I have lost 10.8 lbs since my weigh in last friday... Wow I am so proud of myself for that BUT seeing the pictures of myself I was so sad to think that I had actually done this to myself but I have decided not to beat myself up anymore... I have picked myself up dusted myself off and going to let myself feel the same joy and and encouragement I felt this morning when I weighed in... 10.8 lbs isn't a lot to some people but to some of us it means everything! I still have a lot to go but this is a heck of a start. One day at a time... TO NEW BEGINNINGS!  :-)

Today starts the second week of my new beginning.... Yesterday was rough! Good work out + busy day+ night at the races walking around all night + approx. 600 calories for the day (so busy just didn't think about eating)= horrible night.... We got home about 12:45 am and I was beat!! Hubby wanted a bite to eat so out we go. I get in the truck feeling fine and then it hits me... I was so sick! I was so dizzy I felt like I was going to faint and so weak I thought I was dying... I ended up having to eat a chicken fajita pita thing from a drive thru which isn't bad in itself but at 1am?? Really!!! I am so paying the price today! I typically do not take in a lot of sodium SO with my late night fajita pita attack along came water weight due to my sensitivity to sodium! FML! But that's okay not like I gained any weight yesterday just didn't lose any and I can't take my rings off... Today I'm just going to have to make sure to drink tons of water and watch the salt... The hardest part is not getting discouraged... I keep telling myself I didn't get fat in one day I damn sure ain't going to get thin in a day... SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO on to the good part! YAY!! I feel effing fabulous! I have more energy now than I have in a long time I am actually taking my kids to the beach today! That is something I haven't done in over a year! It's amazing what eating healthier and what 10 little pounds will do.

Ok so it has been a few days since I last blogged... Saturday's beach trip was an absolute success... I even wore a "Feaux"-Kini lol beach shorts with a VERY LONG swimming top I did it for a few reasons 1: I was feeling very good about myself for my weight loss 2: I actually felt like playing in the water with my kids and 3: I wanted to hold myself accountable for what I have done to my body and what better way to do it? Can't hide it when you're wearing a getup like that! I have stuck to this lifestyle change for approx. 9 days and I am down 12.4lbs... My bmi has actually dropped 1.7 points... in 9 days? Really!! Wow!! I think the whole bmi drop meant more to me than the 12.4lbs gone on the scale and that right there proved to me that I am totally doing this for the right reason... to be healthy! I am pretty sure I won't have another week of drastic weight loss because I am sick with a cold and unable to exercise like I had been but even if they scale/bmi calculator doesn't go down as long as it doesn't move up we're heading in the right direction. 12.4lbs.... I love the way that sounds and I love the way it looks! I am already starting to see a slight difference mainly in the area of my second set of boobs and a little in my 3rd row of boobs too!! <my nicknames for my gut> lol Before I started this change of life I made sure I had lots of fluid intake two weeks before along with the diuretics my doctor prescribed me to make sure that I had lost all of my water weight so that when I started this I would see exactly how much fat I was losing and my scale wouldn't be bouncing back and forth.... 12.4 that's the answer!

It's been about ten days since my last blog.... I feel bad for not blogging but I've been pretty sick BUT I am still dieting haven't been able to exercise but hey I'm still losing I weighed in this morning and I have lost 19.9 pounds in less than a month wooooohoooo! I am really starting to see some changes now physically mentally I am still struggling due to retaining fluid so badly but I am not going to let it bring me down. I am now only 80 pounds away from my goal weight wow that sounds so much better than 100... Can't wait to see what I have lost by this time next month!